Full Circle (kind of, I’m almost there...Oh god, not even close actually)

So I had my chance to apologize to someone twice today and I didn't. I totally should though and I really don't know how.
The reason why I need to apologize in the first place is because I drunk dialed and drunk insulted someone who I only knew very briefly while I was equally drunk. Basically, I heard from my friend (who dated him briefly) that he had a very small piece of manhood and I told him that. And what do all fifth graders do when they crank call someone? They hang up. The only catch was that I called using my friend's phone (yes, the one he dated) and he called her back. Oops! I drunk dialed so I forgot the *67 and I thought "CRAP, CRAP, CRAP!".
So at the time I found myself hurtling down Broadway in a cab, while my friend was being yelled at by her ex for what I did. Quite frankly, I felt bad....I mean I didn't want her to get yelled at for what I did. Anyway, she denied the whole thing but knowing him he probably downloaded phone records and all that. So I found myself in quite a predicament. In most circumstances, I am an expert back peddler. I can basically get myself out of anything, but given that I was completely gone, all my mental and motor skills had floated away with the last shot of jamie I did before we left the club. So you know, I had to apologize to my friend and luckily she accepted it and we are still friends.

Fast-forward 3 months. I had completely forgotten about what I did.
I have been going through my own self devised 12 steps. (Not AA you jerks, but anger mgmt.)

Anyway, he works in the building next to mine so like usual I went downstairs to get breakfast, which is usually a coffee from the less busier of the two coffee shops in the building. I usually go to Starbucks because they are faster, but the line was super long so I went to Financier instead. AND guess who I see? Well, dear reader, given my karmic luck I'm sure you can surmise that I ran into the small-wee-wee-man. I walked in there with a ferocious attitude because I am like that without having coffee and I saw him in line and he saw me walking in and I felt humbled and embarrassed by my own rash and stupid actions from a couple of months ago.

So what would anyone do? What would you do? What would a fucking average human do? You would pretend like you didn't see him. You would get in line and stare at the coffee menu like it was the most desirable thing in the entire world. That's exactly what I did. I stared at that menu with the over-priced coffee until I thought he was done getting his stuff and I saw him leave out of the corner of my eye. Then I ordered a large coffee with a shot of espresso, went outside and had a fucking cigarette. And the whole time I thought I should have apologized or at least acknowledged that I knew him with a smile, even if I thought it would be rebuffed.

Luckily, my day was busy so I didn't think of it too much when I went back up to my desk. I needed another break around 4:00, so I went downstairs again to get an iced coffee with my friend and I saw him getting in line behind us. At this point I knew I should have said something but again I chickened out. I'm an asshole, right? [You should be nodding right now in affirmation.] At this rate, I am bound to see him again, at which point I will have grown a backbone and will at least be able to look him in the eye and even apologize for what I did.

Take it from me... this is what doing stupid things gets you....you feel even more stupid the next day.